Hope Waiting To Die

What to do, What to think
Happy now, or wait to sink

Sun comes up, here I go
What will happen, I don't know

Listen to others, or completely ignore
Supposed to learn, but it's a bore

Food all packed for me to eat
But I won't have it, no matter how sweet

My friends try, but help won't work
I'm unstable, I'm all quirk

I see their sadness, brought by me
I'm not worth the time, can't they see

Wait to go home, don't like it there
For pain then follows me everywhere

While family fights, alone I sit
For my dad will put up a fit

The moon comes up, no shinning star
It's gone for now, way too far

I shall not sleep, for it's haunting time
 Nightmares crawl, quite unkind

Another day will soon fly by
Will I want to ever try

So this where things get really tough
With all this sad, hard depression stuff

Should I stay, should I go
Will the pain leave, or stay filled with woe

With bleeding scars and desperate cries
I am hope waiting to die